...Ive been having a crisis of fate lately. And that's so ironic cause there ain't much fate in me to begin with. But I guess you can only call this a crisis of fate. How did it began? Well, glad you asked...This is not going to be so long, I'm going to keep my pouting to the minimum. I was at school, and this university was visiting. I am a senior, so I have to go to this things. So they started talking and well, I panicked. Right then and there. Of course nobody found out. I was just the weird girl who reads too many books and is too hyper to really pay attention. But I panicked. The big question hit me...
Why bother?
In the big picture, why even bother? You try to do your best, but this world is to messed up, for lack of a better word, that people who don't deserve something usually are the ones who get it, and people who work hard, and deserve it, don't get shit. Why bother if we are all going to die anyways? People work so hard for something, and then, it's like, it doesn't matter to anyone but you. And you want it to matter, but this world is SO big, that what you do counts with very little weight. Its just a drop of sand in an endless beach.
So I was in a foul mood for days since my optimistic bottom was malfunctioning. I did badly on HW that any other week would have been fine with me. I didn't read enough, about anything. Miracle I finished Envy, just so I could really get away from this world I guess. And my review didn't even compare to what my reviews are usually like! I noticed, but oh well. I'm sorry.
You see, it's hard to find a silver lining. Will I get into college? Maybe. Will I get into the college of my choosing? Maaayyybe. Will I get lucky and get financial aid so good I can GO to college? Agh, chances are very slim. So I got a crisis of fate. Or whatever. Anyways, I seem to have found a way to repair my positive bottom, cause I'm back. And trying to not go there again.
I started reading One Foot In The Grave today, cause I was dying to, and well, I ate the book. I will post my review tomorrow, now it's 3 a.m. and well, I would like to get some sleep.
Why the superman picture? I was feeling a bit random.
Thank you for reading, if you have, you are my hero-Superman, Hero, Get it? *winks*.

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